What If I Stumble?
Sep 03, 2025
As the seasons shift, September always feels like the real new year to me. The air changes, school begins again, and life seems to click into full rhythm. But it’s not just an external shift—it’s an inner invitation too. September brings us the opportunity to reset, recommit, and recover.
Recovering a Life of Freedom?
Recovery, in whatever form it takes, is not a straight path. It’s not just about sobriety or healing from injury.
For every single person on this planet, recovery is a journey of growth, healing, and transformation.
Recovery is taking back our lives, from one situation or another, it is living as a whole, authentic person, and finding true freedom.
Whether it’s addictions, trauma, identity, creative, relational, emotional, mental, physical, spiritual, or financial recovery…
Freedom is something we are all in search of.
But recovering a life of freedom and taking back our lives is a feat. It is not one to be taken lightly.
No matter what kind of recovery you may find yourself in, whether it’s the beginning of your journey or somewhere in the midst of it, or if you are someone walking alongside someone in their journey, I want you to take time to reset and recommit yourself to your journey.
This is something I have to do often, and sometimes I have to do it daily.
2 Ponytails & A Pair of Scissors
Living a life of freedom isn’t always easy.
I myself have been struggling. I have been super foggy and unclear. Not sure of my way forward. Not sure of what to say or do next.
I have felt blocked and distracted and that leaves me feeling very overwhelmed.
The truth is, I have stumbled many times, and I still do.
I have been struggling with a gamut of emotions. I am aging, and things in my life and personal body are changing. I have been riding an emotional rollercoaster this week, not feeling well in my body and mind, and because of this, I almost made a snap decision to cut all of my hair off.
I was 2 ponytails and a pair of scissors in before I sat on the floor, took a minute to pause and breathe before returning to myself and removing my ponytails and returning my scissors to their rightful spot.
Now, don’t get me wrong, cutting my hair isn’t a problem. If I want to cut my hair, I should, but it’s HOW I do something that is more important.
Cutting my hair isn’t wrong. But how I almost did it mattered—it came from a place of escape, not freedom. Committing to myself to grow out my hair has been a 3-year spiritual journey for me, and for me to find myself in an unsettled state with scissors in hand showed me exactly how easy it is to slip right back into an old, toxic pattern that didn’t serve me.
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It's Not Always Easy
I want to tell you that it’s easy, but honestly, some days it’s just not. And that is ok. It’s not meant to be. We easily get into a place of thinking that “oh, I’m going to be better and then everything will be fine, and all of this stuff I don’t like that I do or that I feel will just go away. But growth is incremental, like childhood. We don’t get taller overnight. It happens little by little until suddenly, we realize we’ve outgrown what no longer fits. And sometimes, there’s a growth spurt—where the change is visible and undeniable.
Our inner growth works much the same way. Incrementally. Some days it may feel like you haven't grown at all… but trust the process.
My uncle, who is in his own recovery journey, told me, “It works because you work it.” So, if you are doing the work, know it's working.
I want to encourage you as you continue your recovery journey. Recovering a life of freedom is not for the faint of heart. I am not here to scare you, but I want to encourage and walk alongside you.
No matter your walk, no matter which journey you are on, you are not alone. And I know that it can feel cliché to say, but it’s true, it’s ok to not be ok sometimes.
There will be easy days when it all feels right, and there will be days when we feel ourselves slipping back into the darkness of ourselves. This is normal. It is ok.
Remember, it’s all part of growing.
When you are having days like this, just breathe.
Remember, you are not alone.
Key Takeaways:
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Recovery is taking back our lives.
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Freedom is possible for everyone.
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Stumbling is not failure—it’s part of the process.
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Quick fixes rarely heal what’s underneath.
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It works because you work it.
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Growth happens incrementally.
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You’re not alone on the journey
Final Thought:
Recovering a life of freedom isn’t the easy path, but it is the best path—because it means you are choosing you. No matter where you are today, no matter what you’ve endured, freedom is possible.